SAMPLE POEM

T H I S   I S   N O T   T H E   D E A T H   P O E M   Y O U   A S K E D   F O R

 

 

i am not allowed to say _______ in my poems anymore.

 

i am not allowed to use blood, or fuck, or god

in my poems anymore.

 

i am not allowed to tell you about _________ ,

or how many times ive knelt down to pray for his death.

 

i was told __________ was taking up too much space in my head

that the poems of him were getting weaker, more predictable—

 

not allowed to tell you the questions i would ask

when ________ came back

 

i am not allowed to mention ________ abuse, or depression

 

not allowed to imagine my __________’s funeral

or consider the lilies i would crown each pew with

 

she has to be healthy, smiling

more pretending for the poems—

 

i am not allowed to tell you about bell

or my family

 

or how many times

ive had to change her name

in these poems

 

also, the little girl can no longer be ________

in my poems.

 

she must be __________.

 

always be ___________.

 

 

 

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